confessions of a TRUE lover

And i thought i was still in head over heels in love with him.
He was my ideal man,my dream,so i thought.
i was so entranced by his intelligence that i thought none could be like him..i followed him wherever he went,i traced his past from his college magazines and chose to learn the subject i thought he would like me to learn.I took his advice for my career and dreamt about him day and night..
little did i know that he never cared a bit for me..
i thought the world of him,and wowed that i shall never bring anyone so close as him to my heart,
and cried my heart out when he was married to pomp and power..
i was so sure that my love was divine,unexpecting ,and without any agenda and so must be an ideal love ,like that of the past historic lovers ,but there were two of them in love then ...i was sure i would reach my grave an old maid nurturing my undying love ..till ..
till.. i got into wed locks..
well this is another kind of love i told myself(by the way how many are there?)
and it took me only seconds to forget my past and fall in love again ..this time i was loved too..
ha this is heaven..
but what was that i had for him?i discovered it the day i met him again..
with grey and receding hairline,and not an iota of intelligence which i found endearing ,he was just an ordinary common man,and here i was basking in nonstop rain of affection .
i was sorry for myself for having spent such unyielding hours of contemplation.
but do tell me what were those feelings?is it a great joy to love or to be loved?
or how do we find out we are in love?my better half says its better not to analyse these feelings and just live the moment but am now sure that i can have one and only love and thats for my sweet spouse.
PS:"i" HERE DOES NOT MEAN THE AUTHOR

why blog?

Its been almost a year since i wrote my last poem,and today i was sort of determined that i should
write at least one hundred words a day..
Lots of thoughts been meandering in my mind and i just thought i shall jot down whatever comes in ..and the question that runs in my mind is ...why do i blog?
why do i want to make my thoughts known to others and i even take pains to inform all i know that they should visit and comment too.. cheeky eh?

But then is it not natural for human beings to crave for attention and to prove to the world they are a superior lot than the contemporaries?
let me ask this question to myself..why do i want to write something?may be i want to be called "ah she is something different ""ohh she has stuff"and all that...but no that is not the case..
I recently analysed that putting my thoughts in black and white might be an effort to find out some people who might also think like me and relate to them..
Had they faced the same circumstances and hardships and happy moments i am keen to know how they have reacted and also come out unscathed..
We human are always social animals and want everything to be related and in this vast blogger world it would be heartening to know that people do think alike and they do have the same experience and they too might have faced the same hard ships and there is a solidarity...
and a feel that"i am not alone "..
yes thats exactly what i want to learn and thats the reason i browse and follow a lot number of blogs and say to myself "dearie u are not the only person in this world ..and there are lot more like u ..so just relax " and so do i..
so why do i blog ?
at last its to relax my mind..
is it true ? lets find out ........

TRUST

The cold ruthless wind,
Rips away one by one,
All the leaves,
The cherished leaves,
And drive them
And sweep them away and away and away.
But like a savior
Falls a droplet
A raindrop
Decaying the leaves
Steering them to reach
as manure
The young branches
The treasured branches…..
And sprout as buds
And dance as leaves
Singing the song of love
Till another ruthless wind
Rips them apart…….
The hope remains….

VEGETABLE STEAKS IN CAPSICUM PEAS TOMATO SAUCE

INGREDIENTS

1. bread 4 slices.
2. potatoes, boiled and smashed half cup
3. carrots,beetroot,boiled and smashed half cup.
4. capsicum green finely chopped.
5. peas boiled ,half cup.
6. tomato sauce half cup.
7. onions finely chopped,half cup
8. garam masala,two teaspoon.
9. chilly one sliced
   
10. salt to taste

METHOD
Mix all boiled vegetables with bread dipped in water and squeezed.
Fry onions add garam masala chilly and mixed dough and cook for a minute.
Add salt to taste.
Make balls out of dough slightly flatten and shallow fry in oil.
Slightly fry capsicums add boiled peas and add tomato sauce to it ,add some water to make it a gravy.
Arrange the steaks in a plate and pour the gravy over them and serve them hot.

REVERIE

So it must be a dream
I reminisce …..
In all veracity..
Or was it an actuality?
I believed must be a dream?

When the day was filled with trance …..
Lovely visions of you
Filling my heart!
Was it you whom that I saw
At the threshold
Peeping and leaving
Not willing
To disrupt my reverie…..

Oh what an experience
It might be!
To be roused by the dream
When you recline
Dreaming of the dream!!

When you hereafter steal a look
At my door…
Do call my name …
For I would then
Positively believe…
That dreams do come true…...

REALITY

We behold,
the moon,
that romantically
engulfs the earth
with cool rays.

we savour ,
the breeze ...
that carries
the sweet fragrance,
of flowers and memories.

we stand
enchanted ,
in the waves
that wash
our feet ....
murmuring a mystery.

we drench
in the rain,
that evokes
a yearning
so strong ......

And at last...
we close our eyes,
snuggling to each other..
though
we are,
only where we are ........
MILES AND MILES APART.

can we for ever?

we saw,we knew;
we talked,we reached;
can we for ever?

we shared,we cared;
we cried ,we smiled;
can we for ever?

we planned,we won;
we sang,we danced;
can we for ever?

we drove,we swam;
we dreamt,we drank;
can we for ever?

we touched,we kissed;
we loved,we lived;
can we for ever?

we wept,we left.
we think,we wish......
we can for ever!

MY FRIEND

FINALLY I CONCEDED,
AND RESOLVED ...
TO WALK; A PATH ....
LONELY ,DRAB, AND VACUOUS;
THE MILLSTONE DRIVING ME.

EN ROUTE
I CHANCED UPON ...THIS BEAM,
COOL AND CLASSY,
WITH A RAY OF CONCERN.

SPRANG FROM IT MY COLOURS OF LIFE
MY PATH NO MORE BLEAK
NOW A PHENOMENON,A SPECTRUM
OF VIVID COLOURS ;
PAINTED WITH EASE,
OF WIT AND CHARM
OF CARE AND TRUST.

I FONDLY LOOK AT IT,
AS IT HAS MADE MY WORLD SPECTACULAR.
TOMORROW ,I ENVISAGE ,
THAT THE BEAM I ALIGHTED UPON,
MIGHT BE A DEW.
AND MAY EVANESCE.

BUT THE COLOURS IT ETCHED,
WOULD LINGER ETERNALLY !!!
CLASPING THEM TO MY HEART
I WOULD WALK IN A PATH.....
VIVID,CHEERFUL AND CONTENTED.

an easy and lip smacking snack for singles

Ingredients:

1.ROASTED GROUND NUTS

2.POHA (CALLED AVUL IN TAMIL)

3.ROASTED CASHEW NUTS.

4.SAGO(JAVVARASI--BIG SIZE)

5.ROASTED AND BROKEN CHICK PEAS(POTTUKADALAI)

6.CURRY LEAVES TWO SPRIGS

7.ASAFOTIDA POWDER

8.CHILLY POWDER.

9.SUGAR.

10.SALT TO TASTE.

11.OIL FOR FRYING.

METHOD
Heat oil in a pan.deep fry poha .set aside in a tissue to drain excess oil.fry chickpeas and sago and finally the curry leaves.set aside Add to this the peanuts,cashews salt chilly powder sugar and mix witha wooden spoon. voila .u have a wonderful snack for ur rainy evenings.

The speciality of this snack is the sago which when fried expands to beautiful round balls which tastes yummy.enjoy and let me know .

PLANT LOVER EH??

Saturdays i weed my garden.Mechanically i set about the work till i reached this small plant.music in my ears ,cool breeze around ,pulling out the unwanted plants was not a very tedious task.Though i never enjoyed, it was really called for.
when i came to this plant i stopped short.i had seen this plant as a sapling ;i let it grow because i thought it must be a zinea but later it proved to be a wild weed;now almost fully grown the plant stood waving in the breeze sporting tiny violet flowers,and i call it a weed and was about to pull it away from the soil and dump it in garbage.
I reflected am i a plant lover ?a true plant lover?if i were one i should love this plant too.Its a shame i loved plants that were beautiful,and claimed myself to be one.Though a part of gardening calls for weeding and i can imagine how my garden would overflow with unwanted plants if i do not pull them out,i think i must stop calling myself a lover of plants.well i never plucked that plant and it is still there smiling .
I remember at this juncture that mrs maneka gandhi had once said that she was against removing the cobwebs -the abode of spiders .A true blue cross person would agree.but is it practical??i have umpty number of views to support but am not a true herbophile.The reality stings but i have to accept it and i do with all humility.

HI AM BACK

HI ALL,
IF ANY ONE IS READING THIS BLOG ,I AM BACK AGAIN.BEEN TRAVELLING AND OBSERVING,YES OBSERVANCE IS THE CORRECT WORD.YOU TRAVEL AND IT MAKES U WONDER WHAT A TINY SPECK OF ENTITY U ARE IN THIS UNIVERSE.
YA ALL OF US DO LOVE TO TRAVEL BUT SOMETIMES WE FORGET TO KEEP OUR EYES OPEN.I HAD ONCE ASKED MY JOURNALIST FRIEND IF HE EVER STOPPED TO THINK AS A WRITER: A SIMPLE "LOL" WAS THE ANSWER .
BUT NOW TRAVELING WAS A NEW EXPERIENCE TO ME .I KEPT THINKING WHAT I COULD INCLUDE IN MY BLOG (((THOUGH THERE ARE ONLY A FEW COMPELLED READERS )))AND MY PERSPECTIVE CHANGED.
MY VIEW WAS DIFFERENT AND I LEARNED MORE AND I STARTED KNOWING ME MORE.
I USED TO CONTEMPLATE, THAT MY BLOGS LOOK LIKE SILLY PAGES IN A DIARY!BUT THERE ARE GOOD WRITERS AND GOOD BLOGS WHICH COMMENT ON UNIVERSAL HAPPENINGS ET ALL,I DECIDED TO HAVE A SMALL DIAMETER.
EVERY DAY OF MY TRAVEL MADE ME REALISE THAT I AM JUST A DOT AND HOW WE SPEND OUR TIME IN VENGENCE AND LAMENTATIONS ALONE .IT OPENED MY EYES AND VOILA HERE IS A NEW ME.
ALL OF US DO GET THIS FEELING MANY TIMES IN OUR LIFE .BUT ITS IS THE PERSEVERANCE THAT MATTERS.I WOULD LIKE TO CONTINUE ON THE SAME PATH AND LETS SEE.
WELL! THE RULE IS ""DECLARE TO THE WORLD IF U WANT TO STICK TO YOUR PRINCIPLES"" AND I HAVE DONE THAT MUCH.
KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED I FLY AND FLY.

PLANTS MY FRIENDS

Plants !what can they do to us other than providing our daily veggies and flowers and helping the universe in green house effect??

Normally many of us never give a second thought to pause and admire a shoe flower.too fast a world and too techie drived we are ,satisfied with a waxy plastic flower, looking as good as original,fresh for generations.

But there do exist people like me who talk to and pamper plants.Sounds silly??No ! plants soothe our mind ;they have a way to talk to us ,respond and of course they do have life.

I can associate the way the plants bloom with my mood.the more i talk to them the more they seem to bloom and here is one hibiscus which always has a flower for me near the window sill greeting me every morning.

The other day i was so engrossed in a problem and too worried and was really

convinced that nothing could cheer me up;my legs took me to the garden by practise and there was this yellow rose in all its glory and my woes melted away looking at the beauty.this brought me even closer to my plants.love begets love ;and its true with plants too.

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SILENCE

(was just wondering)
What is silence?
absence of sound?
silence !!!
Is it related with peace ??
silence !!!
Does it talk about a still mind??
silence !!!
Why do we need it??
silence!!!
what it does to us??
sound!!!
Is that not energy??
sound !!!
Is that not power??
sound !!!
Is that not life???
but silence in sound !!!
Is what a mind needs .
peace prevails
when sound and silence
coexist
when the mind looks
Through and above sound
And detects a silence
there exists bliss.!!
the eternity
of sound
hand in hand with silence.!!!

பலாப்பழ பாயசம்

சித்திரை வந்தாலே காற்றில் பலா மணம்.இந்த புத்தாண்டைபலாப்பழ பாயசத்துடன் வரவேற்போம்.

தேவையான பொருட்கள்
பலாச்சுளைகள் 10
நெய் சிறிதளவு
வெல்லம் 100 கிராம்
பால் 1/2 லி
முந்திரி திராட்சை

செய்முறை

1.பாலை நன்கு சுண்ட காய்ச்சவும்.
2.பலாச்சுளைகளை நெய்யில் வதக்கி லேசாகஅறைத்துக்கொள்ளவும்
3.வாணலியில் வெல்லம் கரையும் அளவு நீர் விட்டு கரைந்த பின் வடிகட்டி மேலும் சிறிது நீர் விட்டு கொஞ்சம் கொதித்த பின் பலாசுளைகளைச் சேர்த்து கலக்கவும்.
4.சேர்ந்து வந்ததும் காய்ச்சிய பால் சேர்த்து,ஏலம் முந்திரி திராட்ச்சை சேர்த்து பருகவும்.
இனிப்பான வருடம் ஆரம்பிக்கட்டும்.

oo pink i love thee

Colour colour what colour is a game we used to play in our childhood. In retrospect i realise it had been always pink for me;and is still so.
OO!! how do i love pink.i know i have quite a number of people who would second me.God created pink to make this world more beautiful.
Pink is for connosieurs;pink is for lovers;pink is for romatic hearts;pink is for bliss;and pink for all who love to live.
If any one would ask what can colour do??ask me .OO how my heart jumps as i encounter anything with that hue.
I can never be tired of buying pink dresses ;i feel all of them are made for me.
Can any one deny the refreshing taste of rose milk?? the goodness of milk in god sent hue?
Rose is a flower that God made as a gift to Godess;and the flower speaks volumes of beauty.
However upset u are, just grab a pink dress and drape around ;add a dash of pink to your cheeks and lips and voila here u are buoyant again.
Pink makes me forget my woes.It makes me float in the world of bliss,and its pink i love to wear on special occasions.
Every time i see a tiny weeny pink flower in a grass, i stop to thank God for making this world so beautiful with his lovely,generous supply of my favourite colour.
OO pink i do love thee,and do stay with me and around me and make this earth a worthier place to live.